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Steven lives in Helian's Glade and can usually be found somewhere in the gardens. Letters can be left on his bed, which is made of moss and several supernaturally large blooms, or the drawer filled stump where he keeps his belongings. He is responsive to network communications but prefers not to speak one on one over them.

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[Yuya, for his part, does nothing to dissuade Steven's nuzzling. No doubt he'll instead find himself secure in Steven's arms, his own limbs tangling around him as they lay together in the quiet and warmth.

It's a second after Steven speaks before he stirs, blinkly slowly as his gaze shifts over.] Uh... sure?

[For a moment, he's too distracted to consider the meaning of that.]

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[Steven is still under the influence at this point, just beginning to sense its fade. It means it's easy not to think about the ramification of what he wants. Not thinking has been so wonderful. Why not continue to enjoy himself? Why let this end?

He pushes forward to kiss Yuya on the lips.]

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[Steven will be met with closed lips as he does no. It isn't a resistance, exactly--Yuya's lips are still puckered to meet Steven's, but it's chaste. Undemanding.]

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[Steven doesn't know the mechanics of how this feeling works, only that it was brought on from being intimate with Yuya. He conflates the idea of the two things together, and so, he isn't even sure what needs to happen for it to continue.

He holds the kiss, as chaste as it is.]

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[Kissing does feel nice... even if like this, Steven won't feel another rush of that euphoria come quite like he's anticipating.

Yuya closes his eyes, finding peace in this.]

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[Steven won't push it further than that. Yuya seems happy, and though the euphoria is fading, it lingers enough that Steven can find himself settling, closing his eyes and embracing what's left. It isn't until the feeling has left him completely that his mood starts to turn.

Though he won't verbalize it, it becomes obvious that the effects have faded, as Steven seems more uncomfortable than he was before. Not with Yuya, but just in his own skin. Still, he stays curled with the other boy, staring into space and thinking about the ramifications of all this.]

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[Yuya let's the kiss break without a lot of fanfare, only opening his eyes once there's space between them once more.

His smile slips off his face immediately when he sees Steven's. He looks away, uncomfortably, covering his mouth.]

Sorry. I didn't mean to.

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[Steven shakes his head, his shoulders huddled close.]

It's not your fault.

[His ears fold downward.]

It just... doesn't feel right.

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Still... [It kind of his fault, just not intentionally.]

You didn't feel it that time, right? [He looks back to Steven.] I'll--we can be more careful, so it doesn't happen again.

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I don't think so.

[Unless there were seriously delayed effects... and he doesn't currently feel anything coming on.]

It's okay, it's just... it's kind of frustrating. We just started doing this stuff, and now... There's something getting in our way.

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[Yuya's stomach twists a little, looking repentant. It's not consciously his fault, but if Steven's upset... he was enjoying other kisses, right?

But he doesn't enjoy what's happening.] Sorry. I'd make it stop if I knew how!

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I want to keep trying. [And he means that.] I'm just... It makes me feel really good, and... I don't want that to be the reason I'm kissing you.

I doesn't feel right to just make everything go away like that.

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[Isn't kissing supposed to feel good? Not like that he knows, not totally high.

But he supposes Steven's always had a harder time putting the present out of his mind, just for a moment, than Yuya.]

I don't want to stop either, but... [He waves his hand.] I just need to find a way to make it stop! We don't have to stop kissing entirely.

[They just have to be careful. Keep a respectful distance in it.]

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Well...

[He tries to offer a reassuring smile.]

If little kisses don't make it happen... we can still do that.

[He laughs frailly.]

It just doesn't seem like I should be the only one getting like that. If it was going to happen, you should get to enjoy it, too.

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I do enjoy it. I mean-- kissing you. I don't need anything else to make me like it... [He can take a guess what Steven's feeling, but he was enjoying himself anyway--a lot.] It's not just because I'm not high too?

[Because if that's Steven's hang up, and not the being high himself, Yuya knows how to fix that.]

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[Well, that's one facet of it, but maybe not all. He sighs softly, rolling into his back.]

Not just that, I guess. But maybe that makes it worse.

...Feeling good is so easy, when you drink, or... have magic kisses... I don't know. If I start to do that, why wouldn't I just want to do it all the time?

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Uuuh... we'd never get out if we were drunk all the time?

[Because they couldn't plan straight. That's the only answer Yuya has, though, he doesn't know what other reasons Steven shouldn't that aren't 'just seems like a bad idea'.]

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We might never get out anyway.

[He kind of regrets saying it immediately after speaking, but it's true.]

I feel so bad so much, I just... don't want to feel like it'd be nicer to do that than to just be myself. And that's what feeling high, or whatever it is, makes me feel like.

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[Yuya finches, but if Steven doesn't dwell on that first point he won't either.

He opens his mouth, but the first few attempts to speak result in nothing.

He shifts, pushing himself up on his hands.] I don't want to make you feel that way. It's okay if--as long as this is happening we don't have to do it anymore.

[He can't assure Steven getting high on magic every time they kiss is worth it.]

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[He's glad to have said it out loud. He knows that Yuya has never really shared his worries, but it's nice to think that he might understand.]

Okay. I still want to be close to you. We just have to be a little more careful.

[Especially because, in that moment, part of Steven wants to ask if Yuya can help him to feel like that again.]

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[Yuya nods fervently.] We'll be careful. We don't have to kiss like that at all. It doesn't make us less close than we already were, right?

[Maybe he was the only one who was really enjoying it, anyway.]

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[Steven doesn't really know what "like that" means in this context, so he assumes it's referring to the deep kissing that seems to be the problem.]

I can still do this, I hope.

[He leans over to peck Yuya carefully on the lips.]

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[Yuya stares, cross-eyed, then lets out a surprised giggle.] Yeah, that didn't make you feel weird, right? Maybe it's because it's like your healing...

[Is it his spit? Is that the problem? He can't exactly ask to test it now. Not... with Steven, but... maybe someone else. Maybe to be sure.]

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Oh yeah... that would make sense, wouldn't it?

[He laughs, a bit more freely.]

Maybe your spit makes people feel buzzed now.

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Maybe that's it. This isn't as convenient as healing. I don't know what I'd even use it for if that's true!

[Probably, no one who even likes drinking wants a drug made of Yuya's spit.]